As usual. Everyone thinks I'm crazy, go figure. Dad and Mom were even arguing about therapy again when they thought I couldn't hear. Somehow I always hear these arguements though. Even when I hide in the closet and put my hands over my ears. I can hear it, they whisper to me.
Dad thinks I need therapy. He's right, I know he's right but... they'll lock me away if they knew it all. I mean, hallucinations. That's what they are, I know that's what's they are but still. The last time things were this bad was in the 3rd grade. Everyone in school knew I was a freak so no one would play with me. So I sat in the far corner of the playground during recess and lunch. and I wished I had a friends. Then I met Lori and things were better. At least I thought so. It was weeks before they started teasing me for taking to an imaginary friend. Lori told me to ignore them but... then I relized I never saw Lori except during recess and only when I was at our tree. Dad wanted me to see a doctor then but Mom said no.
Seeing Mr. Dresden was worse then seeing Lori. First of all, Lori didn't just pop out of nowhere and second, no one put their arm through her. She was real! I know she was. And he's real but I he can't be since he's a ghost or something. And he's worse then Mrs. Dorsey when it comes to lectures. He says I'm a witch or something.
I don't know what's real anymore.
-- Edited by ANDI AMBROSE on Sunday 10th of March 2013 06:57:38 PM
I know its been a while since I've written. A lot has changed actually, I don't even know where to start. Things with Mr. Dresden got crazy, he was yanked away or something and I have to find him and in order to do it I... well, I wound up letting a vampire feed from me. I found out later his name is Azreal. I got him really late that night and of course Marcie noticed the bite marks so Dad went through the roof, even Mom couldn't calm him down. Not that Mom was calm, she was upset too. So I wound up having to go back to the doctor again, and he put me back on those pills. No one gets it, the pills make it worse not better. I can't control things when they're making me all hazy.
Although, being all hazy at school isn't always a bad thing. I don't notice some of the things going on then. Especially when Sylvia and Lauren start being bitches. Mr. Dresden's friend came by school. That was crazy. Everyone noticed him, he just walked into the lunchroom and came to see me. He asked me to go to lunch with him. I almost died.
When we left, well, I couldn't help it, Sylvia was being snarky and I just, it was just a little burst of power and for once I didn't feel bad. She deserved it and it wasn't like she got hurt, it was just soda but still. It felt good.
Lunch with M'seur Valmont was.... amazing. He is just so, and I don't believe I'm writing this but, he's just so incredibly hot. He's all about Mr. Dresden but he just has this.... sex on a stick sort of vibe. Yes, I wrote that. Anyway, he sort of explained why Mr. Dresden found me and why he's really teaching me. He needs help getting his body back. It sort of explains everything. I guess since I can see dead people really well it made it easier for hin to find me. Or something. Either way, if I help him back to being himself, body and all, M'seur Valmont will help me be normal. Of course, once he made that promise I got a little nervous. I mean, do I really want to be like everyone else? Now that I'm getting used to it, I really don't mind so much, its just the lack of control that gets me. That and people thinking I'm such a freak all the time.
I noticed lately, I guess because of the damn pills, that I see a lot of odd things at school. There's a lot more kids at school that the glimmers seem to dance around. After meeting with M'seur Valmont I try to figure it out now and the, to see if the glimmers actually mean anything. Felix, Lauren's boyfriend, is the only one that sort of clear and even that is more a feeling then anything else. Matt and Delilah seem to have something around them but I don't know who it is or if its both, its all just sort of hazy. There's Crystal, a freshman, I'm pretty sure she's a kitchen witch like Mom. She's got that warm green-y feel to her.
Anyway... I think M'seur Valmont has helped already. I feel different about things. Hopefully, things will just keep getting better.
